Seems like it. Actually Chris has quieted down so I hope to go to sleep SOON. I was up late last night with him and then overslept this morning and he missed his bus. Ended up taking him to the dr. – another sinus infection. It goes together – the sleeplessness and the sinus infections. We are so weary – we hope this new thing works – giving him antibiotics for 4 weeks instead of 2.
For some reason at night I’ve been reading about anorexia. I think I stumbled across something surfing Live Journal sites (think that’s where it was?) and then just started reading about it. It’s amazing what the mind can do in a person. I never had anorexia or bulimia but did get to the bingeing state. I always would binge before I started diets, ever since I was like 10 years old. I would pick a date to start dieting and right before it I’d eat huge quantities to “get it out of my system.” I have done this to this day.
In ’99 I joined a diet system called “Weigh Down” and I followed through my pregnancy and nursing as well. It really changed my outlook a lot. It is based on just eating when hungry and stopping before full. However, after that I kind of drifted away from it (as the program developed some spiritual inconsistencies and a lot of churches dropped the plan, and I got disappointed in the whole thing and just didn’t do it anymore). I really got slowly but steadily back into the diet and then binge thing. So Jan. 20 I started following the basic hunger/fullness principles again and am down 4 pounds. It is so liberating – I can eat what I want, as long as I’m hungry, and I stop when I feel satisfied (not full!) and wait for hunger to eat again. And it’s funny, after reading these anorexia/bulimia sites, I can see where a plan like this would be a help to those people too after they have maybe talked to someone about their low self esteem issues.
I think I’m actually going to attempt to go to bed… hopefully!
dori
Edit, Feb. 2020. As I am rereading this blog and have my Pans/Pandas suspicions for Ryan, I note this about Chris having this sinus infection, and possibly having Pans (he had a psychiatric breakdown shortly after this). The clues you see years later….
I just added a new icon of me playing the guitar when I was little. I have seen other LJ journal users do this and I’m stealing the idea!
My daughter went to a new neurologist today – he thinks she may have Asperger’s as well as ADHD. This does not make me happy but of course we want her treated for whatever she may have. Someday later when I have more time I’ll have to explain her history. But she is a beautiful, sweet, intelligent girl, 4th grade, and she has had attention/focusing problems. She has some very high interests like in animals, etc., but the teacher in her letter to the neuro described how she thought it may be a fixation for Colleen, so thus the looking at Asperger’s. I know, having an autistic child, a bit about Asperger’s, so I can see some of the areas where it may fit her. But I need to learn a whole lot about it. I am also very curious to know what to do about it, if she does have it. She will be still the same sweet Colleen, of course, whether she has it or not.