adhd, organizing, writing

thoughts on juggling…

Had another interesting session with my now weekly doc I’m seeing re: My ADD. He’s doing IQ tests with me. The math word problems were very hard for me! He said that I did way above average on them but that it took me excessively longer than normal to perform the calculations. And he said this was very normal for an ADD person. I will continue the testing next time. I also had been told (don’t think I posted this?) that I have a problem in my working memory, that showed upon the IQ tests, that I have a good short term memory except for the part that involves organization and working with what I’ve learned. Thus, the problem I have with organization and multi-tasking. It’s amazing how these tests can show all that!!

So, we talked about the book I wrote in high school, that I want to complete but was flabbergasted that I haven’t worked on since 1996! We talked about all the irons I have had in the fire, and always have had in the fire. My nick in high school (my initials then were D.E.) was Doing Everything, in the class nickname list. They should have added, doing everything but not getting any of them done!!!

So, when I try to juggle all these balls I can’t control them and they come crashing down. That’s what happened, when I lost my job and lost control of my home organization, etc. So now I’m learning to juggle from scratch. One ball, then maybe two. Not twelve.

He was proud of me that I’m on a daily cleaning schedule now, and that I’m not adding 100 new things to my list. I would like to pick something eventually to add — my book, or extra guitar practice, or something. But right now I’m not sure what!!!

Well, off for that cleaning schedule (did half my household tasks today).




not feeling very productive today!

though I DO need to get my butt in gear!

I’ve seen this survey several times and wanted to do it since I have NO surveys in my diary, though it’s probably written for people much younger than me!

:x: piercings = just ears, and didn’t have it done until I was 37. I’m so glad I did! My 9 year old daughter is next 🙂
:x: tattoos = None
:x: height = 5’3″
:x: shoe size = 8
:x: hair color = dark brown
:x: siblings = none

:x: movie you rented = Freaky Friday, for daughter. I liked it too!
:x: movie you watched = Princess Diaries, again with daughter – fell asleep before end. I liked it, though!
:x: song you listened to = I will see Him in the Eastern Sky (don’t know the name, playing now on 95.5 the Fish)
:x: song that was stuck in your head = probably the Hot Potato song by the Wiggles, or some Barney song.

:x: cd you bought = The Christmas Attic by TransSiberian Orchestra
:x: cd you listened to = Jump 5 with my daughter.
:x: person you’ve called = Lynn

:x: person that’s called you = Roger my hubby.
:x: tv show you’ve watched = The Barney Movie with toddler son.

:x: you have a crush on someone = My lovely Keanu Reeves/Ashton Kutcher, etc. lookalike Hubby!!!!
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = Gastonia, North Carolina —> between Charlotte and the mountains and Asheville!
:x: you think about suicide = NO
:x: others find you attractive = Hopefully DH — especially once I lose another 55 pounds!
:x: you want more piercings = None, unless I decide to get two more holes in my ears right behind the first ones.
:x: you drink = No
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = no
:x: you like cleaning = I like to but with my ADD I have a lot of distractions from it!

:x: you like roller coasters = sometimes
:x: you write in cursive or print = I print-write — mix them up.

:x: long distance relationships = Never did it, but okay, I guess.
:x: using someone = Against.
:x: suicide = Against.
:x: killing people = Against.
:x: teenage smoking = Against
:x: doing drugs = Against
:x: driving drunk = Against
:x: soap operas = No time, UNLESS the O.C. is considered a soap opera, in which case FOR!

:x: food = Many many many, but the barbecued ribs I had yesterday are a close to the top…. chocolate, pizza, roast and potatoes, Coke!
:x: song = He Reigns by the Newsboys is at the top of that list, but many many many.
:x: thing to do = read/sing/play guitar/build web pages/be with family.
:x: thing to talk about = plans for the future, hopes for our family and children, new house we want, moving.
:x: sports = Cleveland teams that are SO frustrating!!!
:x: drinks = Coca Cola Classic, Vanilla Coke, Cherry Coke
:x: clothes = loose baggy clothes that are not in style!

:x: movies = 80’s Molly Ringwald movies, Dirty Dancing, Finding Nemo, MORE!
:x: singer = don’t know?? Amy Grant, Bono, Singer from Third Day, oh, many many more. Shania Twain, Clay Aiken, Kelly Clarkson, Ruben Stoddard 🙂
:x: holiday = Christmas
:x: ever cried over a girl = Not in a sexual way if that’s what you mean, but I had arguments with three different people at different times in junior high, best girlfriends, and I cried.
:x: ever cried over a boy = OH, yes.
:x: ever lied to someone = I used to but I try VERY hard to never lie any more – I’ve pretty much kept that up to the best of my ability since 1984.
:x: ever been in a fist fight = Nope.

:x: shampoo do you use = Pantene or the Avon equivalent.

:x: shoes do you wear = Tennis shoes or my new clogs (that already cracked on the bottom 🙁 )
:x: are you scared of = Dogs that are loose, bees right by me, lightning.

:x: of times I have been in love? = 3x, I think.

:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = Little ones several times perhaps but one major one, and one other person’s whose heart I broke was almost as hard!

:x: of hearts I have broken? = One, that I know of.
:x: of girls I have kissed? = Nope.
:x: of drugs taken illegally? = None
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = Maybe 10? Some go back to 1976!
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = None that I know of.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = Hm mmmmm, maybe my engagement and wedding and baby announcements, so, maybe 7-8 with those 4 appearing in 1-2-3 papers? Not sure!
:x: of scars on my body? = Hmmm. Maybe 1-2 – cut myself on an aluminum foil box at work about 20 years ago and last I checked it was still there..

:x: of things in my past that I regret? = Not many — PERHAPS should have married later (but same guy 🙂 ) and had our first kid later, but not really a mistake, just too soon perhaps. You can wait too LONG too, so who knows?

:x: disney movie = Finding Nemo.
:x: word = I don’t know!!! Actually those three words (I don’t know) are favorites of mine, if that counts!

:x: nickname = many of my friends call me = dori IS my nickname.
:x: guy name = Christopher and Ryan are my son’s names, which obviously are my favorites. But Craig would have probably been a third boy if we’d have had 3 boys.
:x: girl name = And Colleen is my daughter’s name, so that’s number one, but number 2 & 3 girls if we’d have gone that way would have possibly been Kailyn May or Kailyn Mary; and maybe Danielle.
:x: eye color = Brown.

:x: flower = Daffodil
:x: piercing = Just ears
:x: actor = Keanu Reeves, Nicholas Cage, probably more. OH, Tom Cruise.
:x: actress = Neve Campbell, Demi Moore, probably more, can’t think.
:x: pretty = I guess, but think more that I’m overweight.

:x: funny = occasionally
:x: hot = Not anymore, but hoping to get there again.
:x: friendly = Yes.
:x: amusing = I don’ t know.
:x: ugly = NO, but the overweight thing does bother me. I feel my hair is under control now (have frizzy curly hair).

:x: loveable = I hope so.
:x: caring = Definitely.
:x: sweet = Yes.

:x: dorky = Absolutely.

Boy this was long, but fun!!!!!!!