chris, deafness

Thanks for prayers —

Chris went through the test fine. I’m so relieved about that.

About the results —

he is severely and/or profoundly deaf – 80-120 dcb. Apparently this is almost totally deaf. He may be helped by cochlear implants. So obviously something genetic here. Both boys are getting blood tests to check on genetic causes, and my daughter needs to be tested too.

and our refrigerator’s broken (for the 3rd time in 3 weeks).
more soon —




hey -when I think it can’t get any more nuts – Chris is DONE with school, has swimmer’s ear (mild, though) AND is having his ABR sedation hearing test tomorrow.

Think of us if you will – I always get a little worried with sedation even though he’s had it numerous times, Ryan’s had it 2x and Rog has had it once or twice to….

thanks — more soon – dori, who is not breathing and just waiting for school to start so she can breathe, a LITTLE.




Weight journal post…

Wow, I was kind of surprised this week! Had a bad week, didn’t focus too much on eating except for making sure I still abstained pretty much from sugar. I lost 1 1/2 pounds and another 3/4 inch! Down 11 1/2 pounds and 2 1/2 inches altogether.

dori 184.5/173/125


life, surveys

ice cream

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream
A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

cute —


I think I want some ice cream now.

I’ve been SO busy, and just crashing today.

More soon — but just thinking of —

big birthday party for Colleen,with pool and friends!

all the cleaning for it 🙂


life, reflections, work, work at home

tired of things….

I know it’s all part of being a mom…. at home.

But for some reason I just had this urge just now to find a job! I know I CAN’T! But I was perusing the legal secretary ads for some reason. I couldn’t stop. I worked for SO long at so many different things and I loved it. Over 1 year as a word processor in 87. 6 years from 88-94 and another 7 months in 2003 at a legal secretary job that I loved. And another 4-5 part time legal secretary jobs that were okay, just okay, through the years. Then one full time legal secretary job in 03 that I hated in many ways but loved the work. I really did have enough of working.

When i was done for good in Dec. of 03 I was OVERJOYED! Excited to be a stay at home mom, to be DONE with the rat-race. Ready to have my picture perfect house, work out many hours at the Y, volunteer, spent lots of quality time with my kids doing orderly crafts, teaching them perfect manners, and cooking lots of from scratch meals and having a garden. Oh, AND IMMEDIATELY starting my music therapy program at college.


Not to leave anything out, from 94-02 I also worked AT HOME – a lot. Typing at home for some attorneys. Typing at home for the word processing job I worked at in 87. Working at home for corporate transcription firms out of state. And finally (I LOVED THIS) legal transcripts for a court reporter. I just got ANOTHER offer to do this this summer doing criminal transcripts. I love doing those…. I wanted to say yes badly. But I said no. Because I know I can’t handle it.

I LOVE BEING HOME. But I need a break. I think school starting for my kids in 5 or 6 weeks will be good for me. I just need a break.

But I loved a lot about working – the finishing something feeling, the time alone, the breaks, the lunch hours, the MONEY! I liked dressing up. And the break wasn’t that bad.

But I also hated a lot of it – the driving, the rushing, the panicking if I wasn’t perfect, the fear over losing my job over my kids’ illnesses (which I did, twice), and missing my kids. And working at home isn’t perfect either — you do get more flexibility but you have to STILL DO YOUR WORK – all night if need be. I remember falling asleep at my desk many nights trying to do all nighters and still get up at 6 to get kids off to school.

So, I know I am blessed, I’m home, I don’t have to do this anymore.  We are making enough now to look for a bigger house. 

Well, just had to vent a little, though I think this is disjointed and doesn’t make much sense! I’ll write more later– dishes, cooking dinner, piles of papers I sorted, bills, laundry, and a little boy sitting in the stroller and an older son hungry for dinner await! (Colleen is having fun with grandma today!)….. I don’t usually just park Ryan in the stroller but he was really driving me nuts – he threw something and hit me in the head — OUCH – I had to put ice on it.

dori — wanting to change background soon as I always do.


deafness, weight

Behind as usual!

Got to have a horrible case of swimmer’s ear for Colleen. She was supposed to have her party (friends’ birthday party, which we try and have in the summer as her birthday is end of May) this Saturday but it’s postponed until next Saturday. I keep telling her, cheer up, she’s having the bad luck all at once and hopefully the rest of the summer will be fantastic!

The rest of us are healthy. Thank goodness. Chris is enjoying his summer camp and swims there and at home. (We got a 2 1/2 feet pool from a friend, with a pump, that is so cool!) He doesn’t put his head in so I doubt he’ll get swimmer’s ear. Ryan goes in too but runs in and out. Ryan got his hearing aides and hates to wear them so we’re just putting them in about 10 minutes a day right now. We have to hold his hands so he doesn’t rip them out!

I am just busy doing all this and my house looks like I never do a thing. It’s disturbing, but I know it’s temporary. I get a little sad about not going to school in the fall now but know it’s for the best. I am enjoying the summer but at the same time am a bit eager for a break come September when I’ll have 3 hours a day with no kids….. ahh.

But we’re treasuring the summer.




thinking about Idaho/ house hunting thoughts

Oh, just am so glad they found Shasta alive in Idaho but what a horrible thing she went through. I just am so moved by that whole story. She will have a hard time recuperating I’m sure. I am praying for her – I can’t imagine living knowing almost my whole family died – but thank God she has her dad. I hope her brother is alive too….

We have been house hunting a lot and have found some really that we liked a lot but they were all over our price range or there was something wrong with them not really workable for us. So we’re relaxing a bit on the house hunt. Our new goal is to keep our eyes open still but to ready our house for SELLING. We have never sold a house before so it’s kind of overwhelming to us. We have SO much stuff and don’t know how we’d get rid of it (things we need!) to appropriately sell our house, to show it in that “empty” way that people like to see in order to envision THEIR stuff in it! We don’t have anywhere to move into while we empty our house and try and sell it, and we don’t have the money to buy a new house, move in, pay two house payments for a while, and then sell ours after fixing it. We don’t qualify for a bridge loan, either, that will help us do just that.

So we’re thinking of just staying a little longer and doing as much fix up as we can, save more money, pay more credit cards, and just hope in a year we’ll be more prepared to actually put the house up for sale. And then the prayer that our financial situation will stay good like it is now…. I know from experience how fast things can deteriorate when you think they’re great!

a little scared….